Tuesday, March 30, 2010
what we could have been, 3:37 PM.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
There are 3 great things in this world.
The first thing is for you
to love someone.
The second thing is
for someone to love you back
and the third greatest thing
is for the first and second thing
to happen at the same time ...
Look into my eyes and hear
what I'm not saying,
for my eyes speak louder
than my voice ever will.
what I'm not saying,
for my eyes speak louder
than my voice ever will.
When we get close,
I want you to know that I get all weak
and want to hold you forever.
I want you to know that I get all weak
and want to hold you forever.
I don't want to lose this feeling.
If I could choose a place to die,
it would be in your arms.
If I could choose a place to die,
it would be in your arms.
You're always there
when I close my eyes.
when I close my eyes.
Dreams only last one night
but love can last forever.
but love can last forever.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.
I love you with all of
my heart, body ,and soul.
You complete me.
You make my life worth living.
To have known you and to have loved you
has been the most beautiful dream.
I can only hope that I never wake up.
my heart, body ,and soul.
You complete me.
You make my life worth living.
To have known you and to have loved you
has been the most beautiful dream.
I can only hope that I never wake up.
Although I have but one heart to lose,
cause I’d rather have
had one breathe from your hair,
one touch from your hand,
and one hug from you,
than eternity without it.
cause I’d rather have
had one breathe from your hair,
one touch from your hand,
and one hug from you,
than eternity without it.
But now,
You broke me,
you broke my heart,
you broke everything!
You turned my world
upside down
and inside out,
BUT I know
it was worth it for that one moment of love we had,
it's a shame it went bad.....
I’m going to smile
and make you think I’m happy,
I’m going to laugh,
so you don’t see me cry,
I’m going to let you go in style,
and even if it kills me
- I’m going to smile.
and make you think I’m happy,
I’m going to laugh,
so you don’t see me cry,
I’m going to let you go in style,
and even if it kills me
- I’m going to smile.
If I never met you,
I wouldn't like you.
If I didn't like you
I wouldn't love you.
If I didn't love you
I wouldn't miss you,
but I did,
I do and I will.
I wouldn't like you.
If I didn't like you
I wouldn't love you.
If I didn't love you
I wouldn't miss you,
but I did,
I do and I will.
I can live
without any friends,
any family and any money
but I can't live without you.
without any friends,
any family and any money
but I can't live without you.
i'm sorry for crying over you,
because I said I wouldn't.
But I didn't promise you that,
because I knew it would be a promise
I would never be able to keep.
because I said I wouldn't.
But I didn't promise you that,
because I knew it would be a promise
I would never be able to keep.
My Heart Was Taken By You,
Broken By You And Now
Is In Pieces Because Of You
Broken By You And Now
Is In Pieces Because Of You
and
It hurts to breathe
because every breath I take
proves I can't live without you.
because every breath I take
proves I can't live without you.
Never Say
" I love you "
if you don't really care,
never talk about feeling
if they aren't really there.
Never hold my hand
if you're going to break my heart.
Never say you're to,
if you never plan to start.
Never look into my eyes
if all you do is lie.
" I love you "
if you don't really care,
never talk about feeling
if they aren't really there.
Never hold my hand
if you're going to break my heart.
Never say you're to,
if you never plan to start.
Never look into my eyes
if all you do is lie.
The worst feeling in the world
is giving all the love you have
and knowing it will never be returned.
is giving all the love you have
and knowing it will never be returned.
There is one pain I often feel
which you will never know
because it is caused
by the absence of you.
which you will never know
because it is caused
by the absence of you.
Would you be my angel once more
to have and to hold?
Would you be my rose
to cherish more than gold?
I love you so much.
I wish you were mine,
but all I can do is wait till that time comes again.
to have and to hold?
Would you be my rose
to cherish more than gold?
I love you so much.
I wish you were mine,
but all I can do is wait till that time comes again.
The sun can have the sky and it wouldnt matter.
The night can have its stars
and i woudnt care.
tomorrow can be majestic
yet remain empty,
for it simply would'nt matter
without you there.
The night can have its stars
and i woudnt care.
tomorrow can be majestic
yet remain empty,
for it simply would'nt matter
without you there.
Have you ever noticed that the worst way
to miss someone is when they are right
beside you and you can never have them?
to miss someone is when they are right
beside you and you can never have them?
When I Look At You My Heart Skips A Beat B
ut Later That Beat Could Mean A Lifetime Of Tears
Wasted On Something I Knew I Could Never Have.
ut Later That Beat Could Mean A Lifetime Of Tears
Wasted On Something I Knew I Could Never Have.
if You Love Me Like You Told Me
Please Be Careful With My Heart.
You Can Take It Just Don't Break It
Or My World Would Fall Apart, but you did'nt.
Please Be Careful With My Heart.
You Can Take It Just Don't Break It
Or My World Would Fall Apart, but you did'nt.
You justify my existence ...
if i have not known you,
I wouldn't have lived,
if I die with out knowing you,
I wouldn't die coz
I didn't live at all...
And
if i have not known you,
I wouldn't have lived,
if I die with out knowing you,
I wouldn't die coz
I didn't live at all...
And
Why do I love you?
Because I finally learned
what the word means,
and you were the one who showed me.
Because I finally learned
what the word means,
and you were the one who showed me.
I love you not because I need you,
But I need you because I love you.
But I need you because I love you.
Gotta let you know that I love you,
gotta let you know that I care,
gotta let you know that for you,
I'll always be there, But your Not There..
gotta let you know that I care,
gotta let you know that for you,
I'll always be there, But your Not There..
what we could have been, 11:46 PM.
Hey there, Just came back from a tiring full shift today, As i recall back just a while ago, during my break, I was smoking at a designated smoking corner, in front of me, was a beautiful scenery, with the deep blue sky surrounding by the beautiful clouds. As i stare deeply into it, some beautiful memories came flashing through my mind,
She came into my mind, her beautiful smile came into my mind, i could feel my arm around her waist, the kiss that light up my life, the happines that i used to have, i could remember, before we were together, the game that brought us together, Truth or Dare, and when we were together, as i was walking with my mother, seeing couples walking together, having their lunch and dinner together, i vow to myself that i had to get some cash to take her out, having our own private times together, watching movies and whatsoever.
But now, all the money is useless, i use to spend it on her before, now i'm just wasting my money by buying liquor, ciggs and etc.
Then a fucking car honk and wake me up from my dreams, i was damn fucking pissed, Darkness start to surround me once more, her smile suddenly change to hatred, all the kiss and love were fading away. How i wish that car did'nt honk and that my dream will became true.
Please make this darkness go away, its breaking me down.
And yeah, i forget something, FUCKING CAR!
She came into my mind, her beautiful smile came into my mind, i could feel my arm around her waist, the kiss that light up my life, the happines that i used to have, i could remember, before we were together, the game that brought us together, Truth or Dare, and when we were together, as i was walking with my mother, seeing couples walking together, having their lunch and dinner together, i vow to myself that i had to get some cash to take her out, having our own private times together, watching movies and whatsoever.
But now, all the money is useless, i use to spend it on her before, now i'm just wasting my money by buying liquor, ciggs and etc.
Then a fucking car honk and wake me up from my dreams, i was damn fucking pissed, Darkness start to surround me once more, her smile suddenly change to hatred, all the kiss and love were fading away. How i wish that car did'nt honk and that my dream will became true.
Please make this darkness go away, its breaking me down.
And yeah, i forget something, FUCKING CAR!
what we could have been, 12:45 AM.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Anybody wanna join me?
!We gonna drink till the end!
! Forget About Things We Actually Need To !
what we could have been, 2:38 PM.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Just went back from work, A tiring work but damn! The pay is like raindrops, Fuck!, I work till i'm lethargic like hell, And the money fly away within a few days,
Went home and tried to help fixing up my father's laptop, Have to do it through the desktop, and unfortunately, my mom were using it, interrupt her for awhile because i wanted to get this done and over with, Suddenly It hangs, What a luck, She started nagging and while my mind are cramped with school, work, and some other personal problems, i tried to keep it cool and not to get angry because she were sick, i care about her, but she won't stop, I Exploded like an bomb and i went, Shouting there's no tommorow, Sometimes i wish she knew the real me, And By the way, these few days, i'm quite moody due to some reasons, you readers shhould know anyways, my post is all about her, I really regret being with her, She will be the first and last. I hate the feeling she gave me. Never want to feel it again.
Went home and tried to help fixing up my father's laptop, Have to do it through the desktop, and unfortunately, my mom were using it, interrupt her for awhile because i wanted to get this done and over with, Suddenly It hangs, What a luck, She started nagging and while my mind are cramped with school, work, and some other personal problems, i tried to keep it cool and not to get angry because she were sick, i care about her, but she won't stop, I Exploded like an bomb and i went, Shouting there's no tommorow, Sometimes i wish she knew the real me, And By the way, these few days, i'm quite moody due to some reasons, you readers shhould know anyways, my post is all about her, I really regret being with her, She will be the first and last. I hate the feeling she gave me. Never want to feel it again.
what we could have been, 11:42 PM.
Monday, March 8, 2010
First of all, I know most of my post are all about her, the purpose of me having a blog is to express my problems, my pain, my anger, I may sound emo or gay. but does'nt everybody has feelings, Well if you do not have, then i don't know your type of case. You may have something wrong up on your head.
P.S, Don't ever keep things to yourself, It hurts. It will eat you up.
Find a friend, talk to them about your problems, You may sound childish sometimes, but hey, When you're angry, every types of emotions came up, For my case, I'll be so quiet, and my face will be cramped out, its like when you try to force a smile, its like trying to bend a metal.
To Shirah up there, Hey Yaww!! Don't be touched by my story, i'm not asking for any sympathy like i say in my previous post,
I'm just saying what i feel, and i what i wish i should have say to her before, The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides. I have never love her for any reason except for this. But she thought otherwise, I don't know why. I'm feeling very weak now inside, I lost all the courage to see her in her eyes, I have lost all the enthusiasm, Everything i am now, she make me. I don't even understand how she treat love, She kept changing guys? I don't know, i thought i will be the one who change girls, I'm surprise that she were the one who did it.. I just don't understand..
I'm just saying what i feel, and i what i wish i should have say to her before, The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides. I have never love her for any reason except for this. But she thought otherwise, I don't know why. I'm feeling very weak now inside, I lost all the courage to see her in her eyes, I have lost all the enthusiasm, Everything i am now, she make me. I don't even understand how she treat love, She kept changing guys? I don't know, i thought i will be the one who change girls, I'm surprise that she were the one who did it.. I just don't understand..
what we could have been, 12:35 AM.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
We went to Tmart today, just to relax ourselves, or myself.. Let it all out, well, it does work.
I feel happy throughout the afternoon, And relaxed.
Hahax, I took some photos wif shirah Biol!
Hahax, I took some photos wif shirah Biol!
what we could have been, 1:16 AM.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
what we could have been, 4:14 PM.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
I need her now, I really need her attention now, Why must she hate me?! Why cant i get a second chance?! What did i do wrong?! I need her now.. I know i sound pathetic now, but i just can't stand it, she's ignoring me.. everytime, every seconds..I really need her.. i love her so much, i really do.. 1 year and 4 month.. longing for that to continue till eternity.. I wish..I wish i could prove it to her one last time ~
what we could have been, 12:45 AM.