Friday, June 18, 2010
Tell her about me from afar .
Let her know that i still love her.
Someone tell her that i have loved no one after her.
And whats left of her, I'm living on it and remembering.
Why do i think alot of this gurl ..
Why do the person i love always hurts me ..
Why did i live so kind in this world ..
What would happen if i live for myself once ..
what we could have been, 7:53 PM.
A million tears, Is not a value to her .
Nothing of me is a value to her .
She walk away from my life just like that, Without any excuse and any reasons. Cry for her, begged her, Put my whole efforts to her to try any never give up. It all fell to deaf ears, fell to an heartless heart. I'm gonna stop disturbing her life. Never want to see her face again, not becaus of hate, But because of hurt. She can have a man of her dream now peacefully . Never gonna be on her way now. Because it wont do any good to me either.
Now i realised that i'm not the loser, But a winner instead. She walk out from the guy that won't never give up on her. That will always be with her no matter what . That will always love her whatever hardships appeared.
The time she betrayed me, and sold me out, And didnt care about the tears of my eyes, Enough, i'hv sacrifice so much. No matter how weak my intentions become, i will still tell her i've forgotten her. She has become a page of a past, Her passion has become something ordinary, The tears of my eyes are over, They no longer kill me and cry, I have forgotten you, and you must go away so that i can live, I will meet someone other than you and love again. There will be no getting back together with you, I have left you and shall remain.
I'm being or going to be cruel to you just as you were cruel to me.
To my bros and sista, Sorry for my cranky behaviour sometimes . Maybe its all due to this problems i had. I' m tired thats all, tired of this. Sometimes you guys wonder and ask me how i can be this cheerful and smiling always regardless of the problems, Now i gonna tell you the powerfull medicine of hurt.
The key to one eternal happines is to overcome ones problems.
Smile eventhough you're sad or angry. And eventually it will fade away.
But i can't do that to this problem, Because its so deep and hurtful, Had i never put so much trust on her and love. I think i could .
Behind all this words, lies another story.
what we could have been, 7:04 PM.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Well, She played with my heart once again .
Let me explain, before some unwanted misunderstanding pops out of nowhere .
First, I love her, she don't love me . Thats fine.
Then i was actually over her already, For short, I've move on, Then suddenly she say she love me .
I was shock and at the same time, Overjoyed, I wanted her to e mine again, And this time, forever .
Then the nightmare came, Again. She ignored me, I got a feeling she does not love me anymore. But i guess its true .
How can she have the heart to do this? Does not she have any sense of feelings for others, Playing with others people heart like that .
And before she says "What about you" , I wanna say this, I just wanna see whether you love me or not . There was never a third party at all .
But i guess all this does not matter at all now, How i wish she read this, And how i wish she read this and change her feelings towards me .
I kept thinking to myself, Since secondary one till now, How can i love you so deeply?, I don't know, But my heart says its you who can only fill the empty spaces in my heart .
How i wish this heart can change its perspective to other girls . So that i will not look like a fool chasing you.
But they say love is blind right? Well, they say .
Now she love somebody else, How i wish my heart can change that fast .
Forgive me for i can't stop loving you no matter what .
what we could have been, 2:26 AM.